GHOST RIDER👻🚗

Yesterday, I had an ...experience, lol. It’s hard to explain and yet… not really…so let’s just try to follow along, shall we? Lol.

You see, I went to art therapy, and I took a type of car service… Halfway through my ride another patient was picked up and it was an older woman. 

Randomly, I got the thought and image of a man being with her. I don’t know if it was her husband, a father, or a brother, but this image of an older man (wearing brown) being over her shoulder kept coming into mind. Also, something about a gold band/ring or necklace, I’m not sure, I’m just relaying what I saw. 

Anywho, the man was with her in a loving way, I got the thought that he wanted her to “take care of herself”...and I got the feeling that he really wanted me to tell her that but contrary to movies and tv shows, it’s not ideal to just come out and tell someone, “hey, I believe a loved one is with you and they need you to know…blah blah blah…” - People will think you insane. And if not insane, then cruel. 

There is also the factor that my imposter syndrome creeps in and I move to, “I’m probably just making this up…right?”- but then why did the image and the thoughts come into mind in the first place when I was just minding my own business, listening to my headphones…? [Note that I’ve taken these trips before, and this hasn't happened.]

I don’t know.

But we ended up going to the same place. Once I was headed back home via the same service, we happened to be in the same car again. I had my headphones on…again. This time it felt kind of like the man that was with her was just…sitting in the back seat, kind of… but twice I thought about him and both those times my music was stopped…paused…not by me. 

I had to restart the music each time and even pull out my headphones and plug them back in because it kind of cut off in a way that the headphones weren’t connected for a moment. 

[No, my headphones are not broken. They were working just fine prior to this and are working properly now.]

Now, I know it may sound silly to some people, but I really think it was the guy with her that was turning my music off, lol. Kind of like a way to get me to talk to her and/or pay attention to him or something…

I’m not sure… but I also don’t believe I was forcing this thought via ego… Yes, I deal with imposter syndrome but the fact that the music kept stopping when the man would pop into thought led me to think maybe I’m not ‘buggin’ out.

The last time it happened, I turned my music back on but I “spoke to him” ... in my mind. 

I told him, “Look, I’m sorry but…” I didn’t think I could relay a message to her, because “she’s going to think I’m just a crazy girl who is being cruel or something…” and I said, “I won’t hurt someone if they’re already in pain, that’s not what I aim to do…” and so on…

Once I said this, my music didn’t stop again, and I kind of felt like the guy… the man, kind of sat back and didn’t really say anything or come into mind again… I felt bad, but I also stand by not wanting to dig a wound deeper. That’s not spiritually helping anyone… 

And I was thinking maybe if I see the woman more often and if we get to talking then maybe I will bring it up but that’s a BIG maybe… 

There’s also the factor, again, about the imposter syndrome and being afraid that I made it all up and it’s actually no one…

That's a sucky feeling to be honest… I mean, I can’t even prove what happened is real… so… How does one really go about anything?

I suppose I’m sharing because there is not always a “good time” to relay messages… There’s a lot of mundane factors and emotions and ‘rational’ or just -non-spiritual- things to take into account. And the “getting over the hump of fear and being wrong,” etc. also plays a big factor…

But I guess I’m writing it out to not only help myself along this ‘learning’ spiritual journey… but to also give whomever else who has gone through similar instances, a little relief? Kind of like, you’re not alone in this… and I get it.

And we don’t have to feel bad or like we’re insane… because I don’t think we are. I do believe in a connection, and I do believe we receive messages… Unfortunately, we cannot help everyone… or maybe a better time will arise in the future where I can help? I can't say for sure...I just have to believe and trust...

But I guess I’m also writing this to allow myself to not feel as bad for not getting a message across... Because it does stick with you... You feel like you’re not doing what you’re “supposed” to… like you’ve got this gift but you didn't use it to help this person so what does that mean… right?

But I think Spirit understands, and I think Spirits can understand as well… 

None of this is about hurting anyone or making them feel scared or hopeless… It's about healing... So, I think, and I hope that the man understood that it wasn't the right time just because he happened to notice that I was capable of noticing him…if that makes sense…

Maybe I’ll have another chance or maybe not… The universe knows and I guess I'll see…

But all I can say is I hope in sharing this that it helps someone… I also hope it made sense, lol, I know I can ramble on occasion...

And as always, if you have any comments or questions, please don't hesitate to reach out to me…I’m here.

Blessed Be🔮